Its For The Best, You'll See.

Hello Readers,
First day of school hey? Ahhhh... Wow, i forgot how it was.. :P

Last night was such a rush, i had such alot to do...
it really sucked, cause today i was like falling asleep in class, but whats new there.. :P

Last night i got to slip in a bit of smsing, facebook and mxit...
Hmm... and guess who was on mxit, and started talking to me?
Blog.

I Know i know... i said i was not going to talk to him, and avoid him, and never write a blog on him again... but its hard... i cant help it.. so here is goes... AGAIN.
Sorry :/

we were just talking about casual stuff like holidays, school, what our day was like... stuff like that..
i could feel him pull me in, once again.. so i had had enough...
I said straight out, Bog, why do you always tell me you like me, then ditch me and get over me in a few days? you know how i feel about this whole thing.. and that i always get hurt, so i dont get it... why do you do it?
I don't know what i expected his answer to be.. i really dont... but i never expected his one...

We talked for a while, but here is the summed up version..
He said because he does like me, when ever he tells me that he does, its true... but the reason its for so short is because he thinks about it, and can NEVER imagine going out with me... he just REALLY REALLY wants to get with me...

when i heard that, i dont know if i was angry, happy or upset...
He had just made it very clear to me that he would NEVER EVER go out with me. ever.
He had said he would just kiss me, for his pleasure and action...
He was pushing me away, which was a good thing i guess... but i was just not expecting it there and then...

he asked me if i would let anything happen, and i told him exactly how i felt..
there so many reasons it could not... about friends, who he was, and other reasons like that.. that i would not do that.. but most of all, because i said to him(because he knows his effect on me) i cant. you dont get it.. you never will, but every time you bring this up, tell me that.. i am the one that gets hurt! not you... you dont know how i have been feeling over and over again.. and i really dont appreciate it..

I also told him that about the kissing thing, does he honestly think that if anything would ever happen(which it wont) i dont know about him, but i would get attached, and when you get attached to Bog. what happens? you just get hurt... i said im not going to do that to myself.. and its not that easy to just think, oh, it will be fine..

But whatever.. there is nothing i can do about it..
and its for the best..

Even though i got told that i could never date someone.. ever. :P

Oh well, it just a sign, that now i feel im ready to get over this whole thing, im not alone..
Well, sort of...

Its really good to know i have friends that care about me though, like this one guy always makes sure im okay and if im not will spend hours talking to me about it, to make sure im fine. :)

See? what did i tell you.. school starts alot of drama...

So lets write about my school day now...
it was so nice to see people i have not seen in ages.. it really made me smile.. :D
Apparently according to this guy, "as a joke" i have swine flu... i mean come on! :P
Bog just walks past me in the corridors like i dont exist.. then later that day, gives me all these flirtatious looks.. :P ?
But i must admit.. i Had alot of fun laughing at him today, something i think *spilt or dropped* or whatever on his pants today, and well, he got a hair cut...
and we all know boys with the sexy hair-cuts :P

Anyway, one day down.. Alot more to go, Ill Check you tomorrow...
Let you in on all the scoop.
Hehe...

Blog Tomorrow.
BabyShoes.
♥