Love lights more fire than hate extinguishes...

Hello All :) Ahh, School is seriously draining me out. i mean it been 3 days and sooo much has happened.. okay, i over did it, a bit has happened.. Beginning's have started and endings have begone... Yes, this is all in 3 days.. :P For the last few months, i have avoided Bog, So i dont feel anything for him... but recently it has been different.. WAY out of proportion.. :( When i look at him, i feeling, like a rush and nerves and happiness that just shoots through me.. i dont understand why , but i do... I Fell Like a baby. Honestly... I was holding my friends hand, and for some reason, he wanted to hold hers, so he took my hand, held it in his, trying to get to my friend.. why he wanted her hand? who knows... But i have never had a feeling like that before... i dont even think when kissing.. how creepily Scary??? :O :O :O So as all of you know, "bog", Seems like he is the star for Babshoes... Just a warning, you will not be hearing about him any longer... You cant. because just a few hours ago, i told him how i felt. Straight out! We talked for about 2 hours, so please. i really dont think you wanna know the WHOLE story... but anyway :) It started as i was talking with my friend and saying should i tell him or not??? Like i was seriously confused... :O ANyway, then as i was saying that guess who i get a message from? Him Asking who i like... I was all mysterious about it.. and he kept on asking me who it was, and eventually i just cracked. I Said, Bog, It you okay! I never got over you form the start, the first time.. i dont know what to do, i dont know what to say, i dont even know the point of me telling you this is? But i am... We talked on this subject for about 30 mins... and came to the conclusion, he is now over us, when i am not... I have to, i really have to get over him... and i will. i juts need time.. He doe snot like me anymore.. and i know we can not happen.. maybe its good i said that, cause now he has re-assured it in my head.. As much as it may be hurt... my heart is braking inside... i have never felt like this before.. Our whole convo was about 2 hours.. so i honestly have NO idea where to start? :P After talking for a while... i was really hurt, crying and braking inside... i told him that its not wonder why peoples responses were what they were.. he tried to make out what i meant by me saying that? i would not tell him.. he had to figure it out himself. its anyway about him, you know? After a while he said, why? Cause im a dick..? I was hurt, so i said yeah, you have no feelings for what girls think... you probably dont realise it, but you say and do stuff to girls that hurt soo much, you really dont understand... "Blah Blah Blah"... In that part of the convo, i told him EVERY SINGLE one of his bad qualities..(mainly the ones to girls) Thinking oh wow, Babyshoes, you really blown it this time, he send me this apology... it was sweet, i must admit.. but that cant just change stuff... I told him that the Bog i Fell in love with was a different one to now, that he has changed, and i really dont like it.. I think he took the whole thing really well, because he apologized again, and asked if i could please help him, and he wants to turn over a new leaf with the way he treats girls.. I must say that i feel pretty good about that. Who would think that Babyshoes would be the one to put him in his place, and set him straight.. Oh yeahhhhh.. :) What i really dont get it, if i would tell a guy i like them, and they dont feel the same, i would feel embarrassed, and change the story around a bit, so its not like im making a fool of myself.. Its weird, because with him, i sort of wanted reasons why NOT? Not fighting for him, but asking and questioning his "no" Which i really dont get? Anyway.. there is soooo much more to the story, really... But i think ill save that for in person, so i actually know who i am talking to when i tell them.. Hope Bog has not made you all too bored.. :P Got To Go Finish Some art projects.. Ah, school really does suck... :P Speaking of art drawings, i was just going through some, these are all randomly selected, just a few form a few months ago... Hope you like them :):)
Oh, i found this really nice quote which i like.. i can relate to it...Love lights more fire than hate extinguishes... Blog Tommorow. Babyshoes. ♥